Writing Update: Difficult scenes, anxiety, and inspiration.

The questions I’ve asked under my ‘Let me feature you’ post will serve as the template for all my writing updates and is about the most recent writing session I’ve had. If anyone would like to answer these questions and send them to me, I’d love to post it up!! So here we go!

What are you creating?

Yesterday’s writing was for my Young Adult Fiction novel, the first in a series. At the moment it has the working title ‘Triogan’.

Specifically, I sat down and wrote two scenes: the first was one of the most difficult (yet one of the most important) scenes so far in my novel. This scene shapes the main protagonist and colors everything she is at the beginning of this series. The second scene, not nearly as intense, serves as character development for the second of the three protagonists.

What was the most recent day of creating like for you? How do you feel with what you’ve done?

I ended up writing a total of 1,255 words in about three hours. Writing the first scene wasn’t easy in several ways. For one, the catharsis of writing means you have to confront the difficult emotions head on. I am happy with both scenes for a rough, rough draft and I do feel accomplished, because I’ve finally confronted that first scene!

What worked? What didn’t work?

When I was focused on just typing the words on the screen, I felt the most ‘in the flow’. I vaguely knew the what and why’s of both scenes and was able to write most effortlessly with those goals in mind. What didn’t work was every time I stepped back and took a deep look at what I’d just written. Because the first scene is so important to the story, I really wanted to write it properly. But writing has a funny way of not immediately coming out the way you see it in your mind. Which, then, led to some anxious moments of self-doubt and concern on my end. With the second scene, again pulling back and focusing on it’s place in the overall story led to similar moments of self-doubt and anxiety.

Did you find inspiration somewhere?

Part of the reason the first scene was so intense to write is because it is based on actual events and emotions. I have been fighting against writing this scene for close to three weeks now but felt that it was bottle-necking the rest of the story. It had to be written. The second scene, I did find inspiration in a song (Epiphany by Trans-Siberian Orchestra), when I realized while listening that I could so easily picture the second main character speaking it. It helped me to delve further into his character and motivations.

Did you learn anything useful based upon what came up in your writing session?

Two things are more apparent now: What is happening when I’m ‘in the flow’ and what is occurring when ‘anxiety’ hits. For these scenes, I am going to more fully flesh out the who, what, when, where, why of each scene before I begin writing it. And then I will focus only on getting it written. Secondly, in order to curb the habitual slide into self-doubt and anxiety, when I’m writing, I’m going to focus only on the writing. Pulling back and looking at the larger picture has no place in the middle of writing a scene. We’ll see how it goes!

Favorite line(s) from what you wrote?

“She held death in her hands and death clawed at her chest, pried open the cage of her ribs and yanked her heart out through the gaping laceration so quickly that she had no time to think of preparing her defenses.”

I’d love to know what works for you! And if you have any suggestions, please share them with us!


  1. Just for the fun of it I’ve been taking a poetry writing course here at The Waters — an hour course every week or so. Sheila provides us with a prompt and a sample of her own writing. Then we write what we want. This week the prompt was “flowers.” As. you might expect, what I write is almost always related to “My Father’s House.” This time I tried three four-line verses, each one repeating the number of syllables which had emerged in the first one.Poetry is not my schtick, but I think any writing helps to keep our work fresh. Especially when we let it flow unchecked (except maybe for counting syllables). Here it is if you want to see what resulted in an off the cuff project.

    Lillies of the Valley
    My father’s love in a bouquet
    Always my mother’s tears.
    Why do we cry when we are happy?

    Coffin lined in yellow
    My mother’s favorite color
    Would she know we chose it?
    No Lillies of the Valley in bloom

    Spring came to my new home
    Wild growths of Lillies of the Valley
    Would my mother see them?
    I fell to my knees as the tears flowed.

    I think it does address the balance between flowing creativity and controlled production.

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  2. That is beautiful!! You should be proud of it! I agree that any writing helps to keep us sharp. I personally believe poetry activates different parts of our writer’s brain. It makes us really focus on the single word and when we go back to prose, we’re maybe that much more in tune with our word choices, even if we have more leeway in prose. This is really lovely! Thank you for sharing it with me!!!


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